Kaca mata hitam...

This cool photo was taken not long ago with my newly acquired second hand Silhouette sunglasses from my cousin, Feilo. But it is now RIP cos my dad sat on it when i left it on the passenger seat. We were on the way to Bahau...Some more, kena lecture for being careless!                

                                          

                  

                                                                                                                                                                                                                   

                                                                                             

This was my another temporary sunglasses given by my other cousin who was on the same trip to Bahau with me, Jack. Its a ciplak Oakley. This sunglasses was with me, protecting my eyes from UV rays while driving for less than two weeks. Again, a friend from Kuching sat on it while i was sending her back at nite. And again i left it on the passenger's seat. This time, no lecture, she offered to buy me a new one, which i declined, cos its not her fault. So, this one also RIP.                

                           

This! Is my latest sunglasses.  Its a sports design for sports fishing. Since i planned to go to Kenyir this March for fishing, its a very suitable sunglasses. BUT!!! It was canceled due to unforeseen circumstances. Well, a friend who was organizing this fishing trip, works in a Tyres Company, and this Tyres Company is organizing some event that fall on the same weekend that we planned for Kenyir. So, this smart guy organizing dengan penuh semangat but later found out that his leave application was rejected... Because this Tyres Company require every employees (or all the sales exec ) to attend an Ef One Event. hmm... don't talk about him la. Talk about my sunglasses better. But i gotta say this, I GOT EVERYTHING READY FOR THIS KENYIR TRIP!!!! ARGH!!!!

OK, back to my latest sunglasses. This is RAPALA, i think you guys never heard of it before if you are not a fishing kaki. Cos i just got to know this brand from my fishing kaki friend who works in that Tyres Company. Cheap, well built (who says cheap stuff, no good?) and it features POLARIZED! Before i decided to buy this sunglasses. Was about to buy the Levi's Sunglasses which i looks good in it (The Focus Point Sales Girl said so, not i say one ar... but she was telling the truth la, so i agreed with her.. ;P )

So, this time, i will take care of this cheap and nice sunglasses. I won't put in on the passenger seat anymore. This RAPALA comes with a pouch. I've make it a habit that i will keep it in every time before i leave the car. So, to all the sunglasses that i killed before. Thank you for your UV protection, i wont forget u guys. You guys have contributed alot in my driving experience, and make me looks COOL, Yau Yeng, Lancee and Oiiiiii.... Hehehehe... pardon me... me 'sot sot' nowadays!

p/s: Sunglass or Sunglasses? My Manglish not that good, please help! ;) but i googled, it says sunglasses.

Closure...

Closure... never thought of having one in my life. Cos i was so confident, comfortable and so sure that this person that i have been together for so long will be the one that will walk with me till the end.

But i had my closure yesterday. One last day as a couple, one last day to get close to each other, hold hand, hugs, kisses and to get everything over with.

Seven years is not a short period to get to know each other, we know each other so well that we decided to move on, separately. We both spent these years with ups and downs, tears and laughters but until recently, we realised that this journey could not move on. So, cant waste time, gave it a moment to cool down. 2 months cooling off period... just to test our love, our bond... but at the end both of us decided that we really need to move on in different direction.

We started our journey as friend, lover, and i felt we are already a husband&wife. But at the end... we are back to friend. Just give both of us some time to adjust to this new status. Knowing that i cant hold your hand while walking together, knowing that i cant hug u like lovers do, knowing that our decision is final. I need time to adjust...

For my buddies, thanks for all ur supports. Thanks for being there for me... thanks for not giving up on me when i was in my own world. But please, dont start introducing girls to me... just let me be single for the time being. I believe when the time comes for me to meet someone, it will happen naturally.

Argh!!!

Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Damn... those HK movies are lying about screaming will make one feels better. Didnt really makes me feel better. "sai hei" better sleep earlier...

Trying...

Trying hard to sleep again... cos i cant sleep now.

Trying hard to write something... cos i dont know what to write about. But i wanna write something.

Trying hard to let go of something that i have just decided to few days back... Still trying. I cant change this decision for our own good.

Trying hard to live life at the fullest... cos 28 years in this world i still feels like i am missing something. Many things.

Trying hard to smile... see me smile but only facial but not from the heart. Sorry, i am not fake, but at this moment, i just cant. But i cant frown... cos it will only make ppl around me frown.

Trying hard to change the way i look at life... it should be colorful, but why is it so grey now?

Are you guys trying too?

Tiada Lagi...

Sia-sia sudah kita jalin cinta, bila hati selalu berbeza

Sampai bila lagi kita harus menahan rasa kecewa di dalam dada seandainya kita masih bersatu

Tak mungkinkan menyatu walau masih ada sisa cinta, biarkan saja berakhir sampai di sini

Tiada lagi yang kita harapkan, tiada lagi yang kita impikan, biar aku sendiri tanpa diri mu

Tiada lagi kata cintamu takkan lagi aku bersama mu, biar aku simpan semua, kenangan aku bersamamu

~ 26th January 2008 ~

Let her go...

Griefing...  had enough.

Crying... had enough.

Regrets... too many.

Done enough... nope.

Miss her... But she is no longer around.

Ready to let her go... not really, but she already left.

Rest in peace my dearest Popo.

Popo... you always in my heart.

...

When loves is changing direction, it could leads us further...

There is not necessary to change what we have missed in the past...

What we are looking for now is not the future...

It is what we have now, what we appreciate today...