Today's Sorrows...

While driving back after dinner with you, i was thinking to myself...

"Today's sorrows are the result of the past mistakes,

As me now regrets for those past mistakes,

Will it be too late if i admit my mistakes today?"

It doesn't rhyme that well in english but it does if it is being said in cantonese...

"Tong Tien Tik Chor, Wun Loi Kam Tien Tik Naan Ko,

Kam Tien Tik Ngo, Fui Hen Tong Tien Chou Chor,

Nan Tau, Kam Tien Tiek Ngo, Ying Chor Yi King Si Thai So?"

So, i was asking  myself...

Si Fau Yi King Si Thai So? Si Fau Yi King Si Thai Chi?

p/s: Its a script from 最美麗的第七天

日久生情...

Its a chinese saying... means When you spend more time with a person, you will start to have feeling for that person. If i my translation is correct... :)

Something like a mutual attraction. Something like getting to get along well. Something like starting to think of the possibilities.

But at the same time... am holding back. Thats when the What IF questions popped up in my mind...

What if... clapping with one hand?

What if... it will break the friendship built so far?

So many what if...

So, keep it cool, keep it low.

But basically, 日久生情, i think it is true.

Time Off

Having some time off from everything in the busy city life. Enjoying every moment of doing nothing at all is fun and relaxing. This trip back to Malaysia is great as i am able to join my friends for a hiking trip to Gunung Irau.

We did this once three years back and i would say, the view on to of Gunung Irau is as beautiful as before. Though this time we we not able to view Ipoh town from the top due to the raining seasion and the mist was too thick. But one thing that has changed is that there is a Board Walk constructed for tourism purpose. This has, i feel, spoil the natural scene of the trek and forest. Information from our guide, it cost 600K to built the board walk. But the most sad part is that the goverment has mowed down a few old trees to make way for this board walk which enable tourist to experience the Mossy FOrest environment without getting dirty.

As usual, we Malaysian has the first class facilities but worse than 3rd world nation maintenance. We can see rubbish along the board walk which again spoilt the natural habitats. I would advise frens that wanna go in to nature to have this in mind, Take Nothing But Photograph, Leave Nothing But Foot Steps.

We did our part, since most of us are smokers, we didnt throw butts around, we keep it with a container and throw it in the bin when we reached to our guest house. We brought down our rubbish. But along the way, we still can see mineral bottles, candy's wrappers, and even a broken glasses. Those who did this really do not care and appreciate the mother nature.

The journey up was tiring but it is worth every little step that we took to get up there. Standing in the middle of rain forest clouds, feeling the rain drops and wind blowing all around us is hard to describe in any words, one have to really experience it to tell the story. Hehehe, but it is really no words to describe. It just fantastic, marvellous!

We break our record, we did it the first time, when all of us was first timer. 6 hours, this time 4 hours. And we manage to lit up the camp fire in the middle of the rain, thanks to the Gunung Irau information board.

At this moment while blogging,  i am staying in Twin Pines Guest House. Cheap but comfortable. With only Rm10 per nite, nothing to complain about and ofcos nothing to compare about with hotels.

So guys, it is good to take some time off once in a while to really refresh yourself in everyday works. It helps to think less and release yourself from any problem in the city. Its not that we are running away from problems, but once you have a clear mind, everything can be solve easier.

Gtg now, it costs RM3 for an hour of internet service here. :)

Ciao Ciao!

What i have been thinking...

Recently, maybe due to too much time spent thinking about my life... so what have i been thinking?

Been thinking about;

1. My job, with the current economy crisis, will i be fired from my current job? Worry.

2. My family, most of the time i am abroad, will this affect my closeness with them? I think probably not but why do i keep asking this question myself.

3. My friends, what the hell are they doing back in Malaysia. Is it like what they told me? They will plan for some activity just because i am not around?

4. My love, i have been thinking alot of things about my last 7 years relationship. Is it still possible? is it too late? is getting back is what i really want? is moving on, a process that take more time than i thought i needed? Am i really moving on now? too many things to think about this so i stop thinking about it now.

5. My dad's question, he asked me, What is life all about? What is our purpose here? Dating, Marriage, have kids? Being happy? How to justify HAPPY? Dating? Marriage? Have Kids? Financially stable? Now he has it all, but why is he not happy? How am i going to answer him so that he can be happier? Or is he happy just to think about this?

6. Travel, few places i want to go. To go alone? To go with friends? If to go with friends, who will go with me? My schedule is not well planned. Where to go first? Vietnam? Siem Reap? Bali? How much? Due to my kiam siapness, am i willing to pay for it? If i dont pay, who will pay for me?

7. Gadgets, to buy or not to buy? To buy a camera or to buy an Itouch? Or to change a new phone? Do i need these? Again, why am i so kiam siap? Why cant i just buy something to reward myself sometimes? Why?

8. My grandma, its almost one year now. I am still thinking what was i thinking when she asked me to dropped by to have dinner together and i didnt turn up. What was i thinking?

So, so many things to think about. Sometimes i just think that i think too much.

Datukship List

Quote.

Chief Minister Datuk Seri Mohd Ali Rustam: Despite the criticisms, I still believe Shah Rukh deserves the title. -The Star Online Friday October, 24 2008 http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2008/10/24/nation/2363559&sec=nation

Unquote.

I tell you what i believe and suggest that the following should be awarded our infamous Datukship too.

Sean connery: For promoting the KLCC Twin Tower, Star LRT Bukit Jalil Station in his movie.

Wan Siew Lun: For promoting Melaka and Cameron Highland where he takes the train from Melaka to Cameron Highlands in one of his HK Drama.

Sammy Cheng, Ren Xien Chi: For promoting Redang Island. Not to mentioned some of our local actors like Ah Niu and some KehLehFeh that i dont know their names.

Jackie Chan: For filming at the Dataran Merdeka and various KL area in his Police Story.

Chow Yun Fatt: For filming King and I in Malaysia.

And many more but lets not forget about me for providing you this list so that you can have more publicity by awarding these actors.

And yeah, if you are going to award me,  please make appointment and better be a live telecast on national television otherwise forget about it.

Datuk! Chiew!!!

Home

Home is getting closer and closer to me. Two more days, i will be flying back to my home land. Been away too long this time... just to cover the time spent during summer holidays. Knowing that i am coming back soon just makes me sleepless at nite, too excited i guess.

Arranging for friends or family to pick me up from the airport on Sat at 1415. So far, YC is the most promising buddy to fetch me after offering 4 packs of Dunhill Fine Cut. :P

Another friend needed a large shoulder to lean on, I offered my shoulder in return to a favor fetching me back from airport but was told it is too dangerous to lean on my shoulder while driving. :) But i hope she is alright now and pick herself up. You sure can do it!

Though my trip will be short back home, but its really fine with me cos as long as i can spend time with my family and friends. Every minutes spent is a quality time that i have missed out so much when i am away. Being away makes me realised how important each and everyone of my family and friends to me.

Not that i was not away before, but this time in European Country, i just feel the distance. Yeah, geographically speaking it is far. 12 blarrdy hours of flight but i will be on connecting flight at Dubai, so another 2 hours of hanging around doing nothing there. Here, is just not the same when travelling in Asean Country where, in my personal opinion ppls are more friendly and less sarcastic. And most importantly, speaks english!

Reading everyone MSN messages and knowing that all of them have activity backhome makes me miss my home land so much!!! I can't do anything here and especially is early falls, can't go to the beach to see nudist. :) To keep myself occupied in the next trip, i will bring along my camera. Ordered the Raynox and expected to arrived on Tuesday. Its a super Macro lens and want to practice on macro shot.

First thing i wanna do when i am back home... :) Call my parents, call my buddies, Get my car, set up appointments, drinking sessions, mamak sessions... yeah i miss Nasi Lemak Ayam Goreng. Did i mentioned call my honey? Hmmm... first thing i wanna do is call my honey! (Back up if she is following my post :P )

Can't wait!!! So guys, hope to see everyone of you when i am back! Till then... still counting down!

Yes, but...

Yes, but... bla bla bla... dont you think that when ppl use this sentence too frequent shows that he/she is quite a Kiasu person? Well, i think so cos i am with this kind of person everyday.

Most of the time, when we talk about something... anything at all. Yes, but... bla bla bla... Hmm, not that i am complaining so much, but... hehehe, yes, i am complaining abit much about this guy lately, but... hahaha, sometimes i just keep quiet and let his "Yes, but..." ends the conversation...

Example of conversation? Well, i was sipping my coffee in the kitchen... and here goes...

Sg. Uncle: You know, after you get used to drink coffee down here, when you go home, you drink coffee down there is like drink water, no taste one.

Me: Noler, i still find that the "cham si ping" back in my place taste the same everytime i order at the coffee shop.

Sg. Uncle: No lah, different one. Coffee down here is stronger and more aroma. Not like down there, different one.

Me: How different?

Sg. Uncle: You know, down here coffee is better. If you are down there you want to drink good coffee can... if you go to starbucks or coffee bean la. Different one. I can taste that down there if i drink at coffee shop, taste like water one.

Me: Well, maybe different person have different taste. Some how i think its the same.

Sg. Uncle: Yes, but now you say only. You stay here longer then you will find its different one.

Me: I dont know, for me its not the same case.

Sg. Uncle: Yes, but later la, later you will find the different one la, like me when i go back, i brew my own coffee. Put more coffee powder then taste better a bit.

At this point of the conversation. I already "bo lak liao" if he say so... then, so it is.

Then...

Sg. Uncle: No meh, not different meh?

Now, just to keep the conversation short, i mean put a full stop...

Me: Yeah, maybe for you.

Full Stop!

I wonder, how can he know... or assumed that i am like him? Different ppl different taste bud ma. And everytime... not only coffee, anything... just about anything. He will just have to stress out that he is right. He got the point. Oklo, i let him win lo, i dont like to talk so much ma. But... Yeah, but... sometimes if i dont talk to him when he says so much, it just weird la. Its like i am trying to avoid him...

So, since we are colleague, give face abit la... just entertain him abit till he says the last "Yes, but..." lo, what to do....

Sigh!