What i have been thinking...

Recently, maybe due to too much time spent thinking about my life... so what have i been thinking?

Been thinking about;

1. My job, with the current economy crisis, will i be fired from my current job? Worry.

2. My family, most of the time i am abroad, will this affect my closeness with them? I think probably not but why do i keep asking this question myself.

3. My friends, what the hell are they doing back in Malaysia. Is it like what they told me? They will plan for some activity just because i am not around?

4. My love, i have been thinking alot of things about my last 7 years relationship. Is it still possible? is it too late? is getting back is what i really want? is moving on, a process that take more time than i thought i needed? Am i really moving on now? too many things to think about this so i stop thinking about it now.

5. My dad's question, he asked me, What is life all about? What is our purpose here? Dating, Marriage, have kids? Being happy? How to justify HAPPY? Dating? Marriage? Have Kids? Financially stable? Now he has it all, but why is he not happy? How am i going to answer him so that he can be happier? Or is he happy just to think about this?

6. Travel, few places i want to go. To go alone? To go with friends? If to go with friends, who will go with me? My schedule is not well planned. Where to go first? Vietnam? Siem Reap? Bali? How much? Due to my kiam siapness, am i willing to pay for it? If i dont pay, who will pay for me?

7. Gadgets, to buy or not to buy? To buy a camera or to buy an Itouch? Or to change a new phone? Do i need these? Again, why am i so kiam siap? Why cant i just buy something to reward myself sometimes? Why?

8. My grandma, its almost one year now. I am still thinking what was i thinking when she asked me to dropped by to have dinner together and i didnt turn up. What was i thinking?

So, so many things to think about. Sometimes i just think that i think too much.