Insecure

i was chatting with a friend... and i dont know how i got to the part when i said something like this... Love will only make one feel insecure...

thinking back to what i said... it is true. how is that make sense? well, from a person that have spent quite sometimes being single to start a journey with a lovely girl, i do feel a little bit insecure. furthermore, due to our working nature we dont really have time to meet up as frequent as i wanted to...

at the same time, i know i shouldn't be feeling this way but just can't help thinking about lots of things. Just like this song by Dr. Hook

When You Are In Love With A Beautiful Woman

:) :) :)

I dont know how long will i :) like this. It just come so naturally. This kinda feeling is just so good, so... er... so... ah... found the word... splendous!

I want, i hope and i pray it will last as long, long, long, long and long time as possible. Forever, maybe too soon to mention, but why wait till its too late? :)

But realistically, some times :( do come by, but as long as we remember how to make each other :) i believed that :) will be > :(

Maybe others will think i am insane, i am out of my mind, or i am DRUNK! but doesnt matter what they think, i am enjoying my :) every moment of the day.

And yes, it is uncontrollable. Hahaha... :)

:)

Thats what i feel now... :) just smile and it is just so natural... :)

I hope i can :) with you all the time... No, i am not crazy...

I hope to make u :) all the time... No, i wont think that u are crazy... :)

To be able to make u :) when ur day is :( makes me :) too...

So, lets :) and work things out together.

:)

*21092009*

Satu Malaysia? One Malaysia? एक मलेशिया? 一个马来西亚？

I just watched the Cow Head video which is still available for viewers at malaysiakini.com and i feel disgusted by their act.

I am here not to say bad thing about anybody, not talking bad about muslim, hindus or buddhist or any other religions. I just wanna let everyone know about how i feel... how i feel about being a Malaysian.

Recently, there are just too many publicities about 1 Malaysia. Can we really achieve this? Can we 1 Malaysia looking forward for this day to really become reality in the very near future? My personal opinion, i dont think we can. Not because i am pessimistic about the idea, just that it just not gonna happen here... not in my life time.

Why? Simple... 1... One, Satu, Une, Yat, Yit... means ONE! ONE means ONE there is no TWO or THREE. Am i rite?

1. 1 Malaysia can only be achieved if every Malaysian play their role. This is the hardest thing to do for some Malaysian who has the thinking Islam for All. I don't read quran, but i know how to read "Alif, Ba, Ta" cos i was in Agama class when i was in kindergarden. I believe every religion teaches us to respect other religion. In other religion,i never heard such thing as Hindus for All, Christian for All and Buddhist for All. We live with what we believed in, we don't disturb and hurt others. When you guys going to learn?

2. 1 Malaysia? Does this really mean ONE? Means there is only ONE system? If yes, then this idea is just as close as a joke or just another big headed plan by our gang of ministers. Can i get 7% discount? So, if not, then it is just 0.75 Malaysia and Majority rules. Am i right?

3. For me, 1 Malaysia or not 1 Malaysia, i am a Malaysian.

Well, think about it and i hope our beloved PM will read about this and if you do, Sir, please don't summon ISA against me. I am just another Malaysian that really hope 1 Malaysian vision become reality.
But till then like my friend said during our discussion... "Walk the talk" dont just talk talk talk...

I am writing this just to share and like Hishammuddin said "had no intention of hurting the feelings of any other race".

P/s: Sometimes i just think, what can a peanut like me do to unite 1 Malaysia?

爱上错的人是一个悲... 如果错的人也爱上了你呢?

there is no wrong or right in loving somebody, but if that somebody you are loving caused your life miserable, then why still continue the relationship...

如果错的人也爱上了你呢?... then it will be double 悲 lo, but at the same time, 如果错的人也爱上了你 then it is not 悲 , cos now it has become a mutual relationship, so the 爱上错的人是一个悲 wouldnt have to be asked in the first place... unless if that 错的人 is a married man/woman then this 错的人 really 错了.

爱错了, not necessary to be 悲, at least you realized it and make a turn. 回头是岸.

P/s: If only i know how to write in mandarin/cantonese... sigh!

I feel lost...

Lost in my own piece of mind...

Can't seems to find the answer till so long...

Expressed my thought and feeling but doesnt seems to help by the given answer...

Apart of me wants to hold on to this, apart of me wants to move on...

Give me a tinker, a clue or a conclusion...

So that i can find my way out from my messy mind.

And make a move to a new journey... hopefully with a beautiful mind.

Today's Sorrows...

While driving back after dinner with you, i was thinking to myself...

"Today's sorrows are the result of the past mistakes,

As me now regrets for those past mistakes,

Will it be too late if i admit my mistakes today?"

It doesn't rhyme that well in english but it does if it is being said in cantonese...

"Tong Tien Tik Chor, Wun Loi Kam Tien Tik Naan Ko,

Kam Tien Tik Ngo, Fui Hen Tong Tien Chou Chor,

Nan Tau, Kam Tien Tiek Ngo, Ying Chor Yi King Si Thai So?"

So, i was asking  myself...

Si Fau Yi King Si Thai So? Si Fau Yi King Si Thai Chi?

p/s: Its a script from 最美麗的第七天

日久生情...

Its a chinese saying... means When you spend more time with a person, you will start to have feeling for that person. If i my translation is correct... :)

Something like a mutual attraction. Something like getting to get along well. Something like starting to think of the possibilities.

But at the same time... am holding back. Thats when the What IF questions popped up in my mind...

What if... clapping with one hand?

What if... it will break the friendship built so far?

So many what if...

So, keep it cool, keep it low.

But basically, 日久生情, i think it is true.